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do you know how sometimes you do things which you never intended to, and say things which you never meant?
i know how that feels.
you know, sometimes we just say things for the sake of saying it, and do things just because. is it to keep people by our side, to get the attention we crave, or maybe just basically to see their reactions. i dont know why this happens, is it some kind of perverse thrill?
like say, this little girl who grows up in a rich family, and then when she reaches 21 she decides to be a prostitute or something. what would she get out of it? is it just the thrill of rebellion, like youre finally doing something which your family would never approve of, or is this just revenge set on the very people who loved her but never gave her enough attention?
or maybe, a guy who plays the field, telling different girls similar stories, and never settling down, just what kind of cheap thrill is that? is he just living a lie? he tells different girls he loves them, but never once meaning it. is it because he doesnt know how to cherish the things he has, or is he intentionally doing this to hurt people?
either way, i think we've all done and said things which we never meant, but yet are unable to take back now.
so why do we say these things in the first place, and why on earth do we use people to our own advantage, and to give us attention?
perverse human nature.
seriously.
ive said things i should never have. ive done things i normally wouldnt have done. ive lead people into believing something which wasnt true in the first place. ive tricked people into doing things for me, just because i didnt want to do them myself.
but im not a bad person..
just dont tell me im a sad sorry manipulative bitch after youve read this.
cuz we've all been there done that.
and this is going to be the last real post for a long time.
